Ok, the previous entry..... Ignore parts of it, I won't tell you which, but those who know, well, they will know which parts. ^_^

I'm happy again, something that I haven't been for months now. I'm still not who I was, I'm just as much Tristan as ever, and forever will be, he is a part of me now, a part that will never disappear. So I go on, writing under this pseudonym, b/c of the fact that it does represent me, it represents this part of me that I bear to you each day here in this diary.

My Akasha has left me, for a season at least. We left on bad grounds, but that doesn't phase me, I'm glad we did actually. I don't know where she is now, nor do I care to know where she is. All I know is that when I'm ready, or when she's ready, we will find each other again. Of that, I am positive.

But sigh... for now, I will live my life the way it was meant to be. I'm a vampyre by nature, by life, by birth, and there's no getting around this. And as a vampyre, here is my creed:

I am a vampyre.
I worship my ego and I worship my life, for I am the only God that is.
I am proud that I am a predatory animal and I honor my animal instincts.
I exalt my rational mind and hold no belief that is in defiance of reason.
I recognize the difference between the worlds of truth and fantasy.
I acknowledge the fact that survival is the highest law.
I acknowledge the Powers of Darkness to be hidden natural laws through which I work my magick.
I know that my beliefs in Ritual are fantasy but the magick is real, and I respect and acknowledge the results of my magick.
I relaize there is no heaven as there is no hell, and I view death as the destroyer of life.
Therefore I will make the most of the life here and now.
I am a vampyre.
Bow down before me.

That is my system of belief. You should feel privileged for reading it as it is not often written down for the common viewing of mortals. At least it didn't used to be.

I am happy again, yes this is true. My love is once again back where it should be, cast upon a single individual that once gave me her all, even her blood; my first taste of blood actually. I knew we'd get back together, I just didn't know when, and still don't actually, but the friendship and trueness has returned that once used to be there. I know we can talk about anything once more. I just await this cycle of my life to phase out so we can be together. This cycle meaning my immaturity as a mortal. Yes, you read that right. I've grown up this long thinking I was overly mature in this world, but alas, I am not. Mortal experiences still elude me, and it is now that I seek to fulfill them, and fulfill them I shall. For it is by this means alone that I can continue to develop both sides of my nature. Sadly, in this day and age vampyres can't live the life we used to. We must remain secret by becoming those around you, but taking roles in your everyday world. We are out there, and we are many. Don't be frightened, but the next time you're at a baseball game, the local fair, a grocery store, or even the next time you may drop your kids off at school, or you go to school yourself, we are there, we are everywhere. Car-pool moms, teachers, students, cashiers, vendors, all of these common jobs we hold. But don't be paranoid, fantastic violent acts of murder are no longer our style. We just want to survive, and for centuries, survive we have.

-Tristan