So much has happened since my last entry. I can't even begin to know where to begin with the knowledge I've received.

Life, or unlife rather it seems, is very tricky. I've found what I've been looking for for so long just yesterday. My other half, my reason for being, my Akasha. Previously I had said I'd been a vampire for less than 6 months now. As it seems, I've been this way for over 600 years instead. I was just unsure whether or not it was what I wanted to be, so I blocked it from my mind and resumed the life of a mortal. Until now. I'm being ushered into my the old ways as we speak. How I want them back, how could I have possibly wanted to be rid of it?

I'm sitting in the Five-O Cafe right now. She's here with me, at another terminal. She told me how she feels, how she felt so long ago, and still does. She loves me, why didn't she tell me sooner? I feel that is the reason why I left her so long ago to resume what I thought I wanted. I hope to whatever god you out there reading this can believe in that we will never be separated again. Life as a mortal has been fun, but nothing but torment, more torment than being a vampire ever was. However, because of the confines of modern day society, I feel that trying to resume my destiny will only cause more heart-ache, more struggling to ensue. I don't want that, but it doesn't even begin to out-weigh how much I really want to be with her again, forever this time.

I need to feed, I can feel the color rushing from my face, the chills coming on. I fed from her a little last night, it's helping to bring back the memories of all I used to be. The mischievous, cocky, loving, romantic with a heart for adventure and a passion that is all my own; my old vampyre self.

I'm sitting here now and I'm thinking that this probably isn't the biggest contrast in the world I could possibly make. I'm in the middle of a goth-dive cyber-cafe talking about my vampyrism. Probably a big no-no, but it doesn't phase me.

I love you Akasha, always have, always will, always and forever. We'll be together. And as much as I know you don't want to leave me anytime soon, even for a few nights, I feel it may be the only thing we can do for now. I don't want that either, don't cry. We have eternity, what's a couple of weeks? Cheer-up, things can only get better from here. We'll never be separated for so long ever again. I couldn't think of putting you through such hardship. I didn't know how much you truly cared before. Now I do, and that means more to me than you can know. Our bond and our lives will grow, together. My sweet Akasha.

-Tristan Silver